The V***ger Response
I wander an endless day comprised of irresolvable aggression that has turned violent. Afraid, I voyage down a lonely road of depression. But, I wonder if I let the depression injure me, so that I might be able to capture God’s attention. Do I inflict myself with an injury, with the foolish attempt to trap God so that I rage at something, someone who could stop the cycle of hatred. If anyone would know, if this is true that the injury is self-inflicted, it would be God. I honestly can’t tell of myself because the fear is real and to ignore the growing threat, foolish. But then I have to consider, if God knows my depression is essentially a manipulative move to capture God, would no answer be the best answer? That if I believed the only time I can receive God’s attention is when I am injured, then clearly injury is self-inflicted and therefore no response would at the very least stop me from believing self-sympathy is the way to God.